Marvins Room

I was sitting on a plane a couple weeks ago having a drink. Well actually a few drinks. Those little nip bottles are so irritating they make you feel like even more of a drinker than you already are, because you have to order at least 3 to get a decent buzz! So I'm on nip number 3 and I'm listening to Drake's "Marvin's Room". I'd been telling myself for weeks that I should write a remix... everybody else has seemed to remix it, so why not? I actually have every version I could find on my phone, so I have them all in rotation as I begin to write, The third verse comes to me first... which is weird. I'm usually a linear writer. Anyway, I get the third verse down then the chorus comes to me and a first verse. After that its like my mind went completely blank. Or most likely I was just tired of sulking and feeling bad for myself. So needless to say the 2nd verse has never been written... and probably never will. If you haven't heard it, first of all what rock have you been under? If not, you can you tube it so you can get a feel for what the song is all about. I will probably just add the video to the blog anyway, because I feel like the song represents how I feel about a certain time in my life. For the life of me I still can't figure out why the song is called Marvins Room???? But without any further ado...

I've been drinking all night
Way too Much Patron
Feeling like I'm wandering
Just trying to find my way home
Yeah I know its been a year now
But I'm still trying to figure out
How the hell we lost touch
Boy I thought we were in love...

Fuck that new girl that you think you love
You just ran to her boy because we broke up
I said, Fuck that new girl you gave your last name
When I heard that news... Well
Damn near went insane

I'm just saying that you can do better
Yeah I fucked up
But I was trying to be better
I'm just saying with me you had better
You know I rocked your world every time we were together
 

(insert verse 2)



Boy that's fucked up
You left me broken hearted
Drinking so much got me acting retarded
Drunk dialing all of the Men in my phone
Just trying to find someone to take me home
Not that I always need someone with me
But tonight I'm tired of being lonely
I'm missing the way
That You used to hold me
So I need someone to come set me free
So tired of being in captivity
I'm screaming for help
Can you even hear me
Keep trying to tell myself I should move on
Everything we had is so dead and gone
But every time I get a cup of Patron
I start to  remember that I'm all alone
I'm in here mixed up
Talking like I'm crazy
Wishing you would pick up
Wishing I could come home
Boy its been so long

Fuck that new girl that you think you love
You just ran to her boy because we broke up
I said fuck that new girl you gave your last name
Swear when I heard that shit I damned near went insane

I'm Back.... I'm Back!!! (written 7/29)

Greetings My Anonymous Audience,

I know it seems that I have abandoned you AND the blog seeing as how I haven't posted anything in months. Well I'm here to say "I'm Back... I'm Back"! I want to say that the reason for my lack of sensual literal deposits into your lives is because I'm just TOO BUSY... unfortunately, that is not the case. Granted I have been EXTREMELY busy the past few months moving and making moves. That is not the only reason. I promised I would always be honest, so here's the truth. I just have been too damn lazy. And frankly uninspired. Not that I've run out of tantalizing tidbits for you. I just haven't had the drive to type them up into entertaining little stories for you to read. So whats different about today? Well for one, my laptop is laying next to me in the bed... staring me down... begging me to tickle its keys. There's this huge rain storm that is making me apprehensive about leaving my room to continue with my Friday night plans.

I was wrapping up a few things from work when I decided to visit the site and see what our traffic was looking like... over 1000 views!!!! That's great, especially since I haven't written anything interesting in a while. So I decided to make myself sit and write!!!! I have quite a few things I want to share with you guys , not sure if they will all make it tonight. But I will do my best to leave you with a few lines from me....

Chocolate Dreams")

Pu**y Power from Truthpaste TV James Hannah

I want.... a..... Refund!!!

Excuse Me, but
FUCK LOVE
I don't mean no disrespect, but we got beef
I paid you but you didn't deliver
Don't you have some kind of Money Back Guarantee
I'm an UNSATISFIED customer
and I want a Fucking REFUND
I want my time back and ALL my damn tears
My energy, every sleepless night... matter of fact every single year
I'm Suing... FALSE ADVERTISEMENT
You forgot to tell me about the Side Effects
May Cause....
- Headaches, Insomnia, Nausea, Anxiety, and in some cases even death.
Other side effects, though mild may be permanent
......Fine Printing My Ass

The Heart of the Matter (India Arie)

Goodbye

I keep hearing in my head say Goodbye to Yesterday

I'm looking to the future but my past is in the way

My Friends are always saying Girl you know we're getting older

And its some shit about our past that we just gotta get over

And I swear Everyday this life is getting crazy

Time changes us all and that never ceases to amaze me

All my old loves are getting married on me

They dropped out the game and retired on me

Kinda makes me feel like time is slipping by on me

I know we had our issues, but selfishly enough I always thought you'd wait on me

All I needed was a little time

Time to... do me, seek me, find me

So I could be the best me... when you came back to me

But..... I ran... out...

Of time that is... see time that is

The hardest thing to take captive

And even when you think you have it, its short lived

Holding on to a memory that no longer exists

Possibilities exhausted stuck in the abyss

Everything we had has dissipated here

Our love our dreams and every single year

Back is gone... yesterday too

For you there is no me, And for me there is no you.

Brotha to the Night (from Love Jones)